Quality over Quantity

Quality over quantity.

 

Dear Louisa Clark,

By the time you got this letter it’s probably already been a couple weeks since I’ve been gone.  I hope one day you will forgive me for what I decided to do. I am a man who chooses the quality of life over quantity of life: “I loved my [old] life, Clark. Really loved it. I loved my job, my travels, the things I was. I loved being a physical person. I liked riding my motorcycle, hurling myself off buildings. I liked crushing people in big deals.” (Moyes 426.) And all of that disappeared in a flash. At the beginning, I always blamed myself for not looking out but I realized that there really was no point of getting mad at myself. It doesn’t change the fact that I am always going to be using an electric chair. I am not made to exist in a chair – yet it is the thing that defines me now. The first thing anyone will ever notice about me is that horrible chair. In my dreams, I would still be my old self, hiking up mountains, swimming in the oceans, skiing on black trails but when I woke up it was all different. My legs and arms were motionless. Have you ever experienced what it’s like to not be able to do anything by yourself, Clark? To not be able to eat by yourself, use the restroom or get off your own bed.

Those last six months of my life was amazing with you in it. The moment you came you brought me an abundance of happiness and I think it was the best I looked ever since the accident. I appreciate you so much for planning all those amazing activities. The first trip when we went on to go see the horses was not your best idea, but there were better ones. Being able to just be “the man going to a concert with a girl in a gorgeous red dress” was absolutely amazing. I wish that night lasted forever. The night we danced and Alicia’s wedding was something else. I never thought someone would be able to love me again and look at me the way I use to look at Alicia.  That night when you said “I love you, I do. I knew it when I left Patrick. And I think you might even love me a bit” (424) it was true. I did love you more than anything but it was worth nothing if I couldn’t be the old me around you. I wanted to be the tall, handsome, brave and courageous Will with you. Not the guy in the electric wheelchair who everyone glares at and feels sorry for. I want to be able to get married properly with you, hold our kids in my hands, cook for you and so much more. “I don’t want you to look at me one day and feel the tiniest bit of regret or pity”

Even though a life with you would have been amazing but it wasn’t enough for me. I use to be the CEO of my own company, be able to travel all over the world and do wild things: “I need[ed] it to end there. No more chair. No more pneumonia. No more burning limbs. No more pain and tiredness and waking up every morning already wishing it was over.” (388) I know you thought my final decision of prosecuting myself in Switzerland was a selfish idea and I hope you truly understand why I did what I did.                                                                Clark, I left all of my money for you and I’m sorry I didn’t tell you this in person because I knew you were going to freak out. I hope you use the money I gave you to move away from this horrible little town and to college. Life is too short to waste. You have to live every minute to the fullest. Don’t waste any of your time anymore sitting in this town. You never know what god has in plan for you so you have to everything the best you can. From my life story, you can learn that life can suddenly change in a flash. Every decision, every move has a big impact on your life. If I didn’t walk that fast that day I wouldn’t have crashed into the motorcycle. If I didn’t call someone while walking I wouldn’t have crashed into the motorcycle. If that Taxi wasn’t there I wouldn’t have crashed into the motorcycle. What I’m trying to tell you Clark is that you should stop wasting time and go live your life because you never know what’s going to happen to you next. You could possibly get hit by a car while you’re reading this letter and you will never know.

I will always be with you forever. Don’t miss me too much!

 

I love you Louisa Clark

From your dearest friend Will Traynor

July 3rd, 2009

 

 

This letter from Will Traynor to Louisa Clark in the book Me Before You after by JoJo Moyes. One of the themes in the book is that life can change in a flash so you should appreciate every moment of it. Will was the CEO of his own company and a really brave and reckless man. Then in a flash, his life changed forever and he was paralyzed. Will is telling Louisa Clark (one of the main character of the book) that she should go out and live her life because she is 27 and still living with her parents. This theme affects Louisa because her life changed forever by it.  She eventually starts living more just like Will. If Louisa never met Will her whole life would be a different story. She would probably stay at home and work at a bakery instead of going to college to learn about Fashion and chasing her dreams. She would have never left that little town and traveled the world.