Controlling Destiny- Final Process Journal

1.How do you feel now that you have finished the final acting scene?

It feels relieving to be done with something we’ve been working on for so long, and something we have worked so hard for.

2. I Used to think/Now I think – in regards to preparing for your final acting scene.

I used to think that during our performance everything needed to go exactly to plan, but after the performance when we realized we stuttered a bit or skipped a few lines I now think that acting is all about going with the flow, creating a realistic scene and not all about being perfect.

3. What did you do well? Your ensemble?

I think that I projected my voice well so that the audience could hear me, and enunciated my words clearly. I also tried talking at a speed the audience would be able to follow along comfortably with. I think that our ensemble improved with our blocking and handling props as we connected our movements to dialouge, and we knew when and where we needed to go/be.

4.  What do you feel you could do better on in the future?

I think that one major thing our ensemble could improve more on is just getting the script right first, as I am aware we skipped some lines, but it didn’t affect how our scene flowed. However, as an individual I feel like I could improve on my character development and more of the body movements my character would’ve maybe done.

5. Connect the process of creating a character, developing performance and performance to YOU in the future.

I feel like through the process of developing a character and performance will help me in the future as I can learn how to embody and notice specific details about people or the way a scene flows. It will also help me make wiser decisions as I will want to me more precise with everything I do.

Disney “Tangled”- PJ Response

  1. Before it starts – what do you know about Musicals and what do you expect you will see?

I know that musicals can be based on a movie, and it is performing a show but instead of mostly dialogue, the actors mostly are signing throughout the show.

  1. What did you notice about the performance? 

The lighting really focused on the characters, and I think it helped set the scene. As when the lights we bright and shining directly onto the character, it usually meant good things were going to happen. But when the lights were dimmed and more spread out, bad things followed.

  1. What does the performance remind you of?

The storyline of Tangled really reminded me that everyone should always have faith in themselves and remember that they can achieve anything. That you’ll never know if you will succeed if you don’t take the risk and try. And also, to never let anyone or anything hold you back from your dreams.

4. How did you feel during the performance?

During this performance, when Rapunzel used her magic hair power to help save Flynn, it made me feel very happy for her and she was outside finally living out her dreams and using what she was given and a gift to help and save others.

5. What questions do you have about the performance? The process? Performing in a musical?

 How long did all of this take to put together? How was handling the long hair prop a challenge for the actors?

  1. What part of the performance did you enjoy the most? The least?  Why do you think that is?

I really enjoyed the part where Rapunzel lives a happy life after getting rid of her “mom”, and finding her real family with Eugene (Flynn). But before that, I didn’t really enjoy it when Rapunzel’s “mom” cut her hair off to attempt to get rid of Flynn, probably because I felt really bad, and just wanted Rapunzel and Flynn to have the best life.

Improvisation- PJ

In terms of my growth in drama improvisation, I think I really have improved in saying “Yes” and “Yes and…”. This has really helped as now I am more accepting of other people’s offers, and freeing up my expectations/creativity. A exercise we had done in class that I really enjoyed was Parkside, as I felt like it let me continously think of more ideas and interact better with my classmates. Because of this improvisation unit, it has made me realize that improv isn’t actually scary! You just have to go with the flow, and it doesn’t really need to be funny and make sense all the time. I can transfer all the techniques and skills learnt in this unit and use it in the future, as it has taught me to be direct, make statements, and be open to all suggestions.

Sound Exercise: PJ

In this class, we did a sound exercise, where we listened to Mr. Redman’s voice and interpreted each scene of the story. At first, we relaxed on the floor, focusing on how our bodies could feel and isolate each limb. Then we moved on to imagining our surroundings, finding shelter, looking for water and food, and much more. During this exercise, I felt like I put a decent amount of effort into it, I tried imagining the different scenarios and using objects around the room to help me with it.

On my journey, I started out on the shore of the island, with no idea how I got there. As I started exploring a thunderstorm had hit, and I needed to find shelter (I hid under a table), later on, this storm turned into snow and I was “freezing”. I used my body heat to try to warm myself up, rubbing my hands and arms together, I looked around me for things to build my fire. As the storm passed, I needed to find food. I walked around the island and found some insects that I could cook over my fire and eat. There was a nearby river, and the water looked pretty clean and safe to drink. I didn’t have anything to carry and store things in, so I had to eat and drink as much as I could at the moment. Eventually, after trekking the island for a long time, I was tired and needed to find shelter (I found the black box thing and hid in it), I came across a cave-like structure and began to go inside of it.  It was dark and I was scared, but inside something had caught my eye. It was a treasure box. I carefully unclasped the box and lifted it open. Inside was a map, a map of the island. I followed this map which led me back to the river I was at, and at the end was a canoe. I got into the canoe and started paddling away, but after a while, I realized that there were people following me, I started paddling faster and faster, but the water kept seeping into my boat. I tried to scoop out the water, but there was too much and my boat capsized.

7 Questions an actor asks about their character

*Based on monologue*

Who am I?

I am an eighteen-year-old girl, currently a student in college. I have ginger hair and green eyes, a lot of people may say or assume that I live a perfect life, getting good grades, having a loving relationship, but in reality, that’s not the case. I come from a very religious family, my parents have been strict since the day I was born and continue to discipline me (even when I’m not living under their roofs. One day my friends and I really wanted to attend a pride festival in June just for fun, supporting the LGBTQ+ community. Sadly, my parents did not approve of me going to this festival, despising those who were part of that community. I may not have shown the disbelief on the outside, as I knew where my parents came from, but deep down, I really thought I was part of that community, liking girls instead of boys. I was now afraid of the current relationship that I had with my boyfriend and didn’t want to tell anyone, until one day where I eventually broke.

Where am I?

After I finish my college classes for the day, my boyfriend still had football practice, so I walk back with my friend to his dorm. We hung out here a lot, talking and gossiping, and helping each other with homework. My relationship with him was far different from the one I had with my boyfriend. With him everything seemed to fall more naturally, nothing seemed forced and we never argued. But with my boyfriend, it was a whole different story. I had always felt a tad bit awkward around him, like every move I made he was judging me. I just wasn’t as comfortable around my boyfriend as I was my friend, I guess. My boyfriend really didn’t like my friend, nor my entire friend group, the people I hung out with every day. Apparently, something about them just really annoyed him.  I couldn’t tell if this was because we were dating or not, but he would always back away when he got close to them.

What time is it?

As I sit on my friend’s bed, I gaze into the sky as the sun sets slowly, creating beautiful colors for me to look at. The brown and orange leaves fall off, flying into the sky, leaving the tree bare. It was October 31, the night of Halloween.

What do I want?

My boyfriend had asked me to attend the Halloween party with him tonight, but my friend group had also asked me to go with them. I loved my boyfriend and all, but I may love my friends more, there was just something about them that just sparked more. I just could imagine more happening with my friends. Though out of all my friends, there was this one girl that really intrigued me, we never really hung out one on one, but we talked to from time to time, and she was just so different yet special. I couldn’t tell if I liked her as a friend or something more than that.

Why do I want it?

I wanted to get closer to her, to find more about her, to see if I actually liked her in the way I thought I did. So, I told my boyfriend that I would be attending the Halloween party with them instead. He was very disappointed, but I get where he was coming from, he had always done so much for me and put so much effort into our relationship.  But it just didn’t feel right, I just don’t think I felt the same way towards him anymore. I felt as if I was falling for this other girl. She connected to me more than he did. There was just something more between us, a little something that I couldn’t quite find the words to explain.

How will I get what I want?

Ranting to my guy friend about this girl I wanted, he gave me some advice, nonetheless, it wasn’t very helpful. He had no experience with relationships whatsoever, so I really didn’t know what to do next. Should I tell my boyfriend and break up with him?

What must I overcome to get?

I decided that I was going to tell my boyfriend that I was gay, but maybe not the part about where I had a tiny crush on a girl. It was the right thing to do. He needed to know, and I really didn’t want to lead him on. I felt so bad though, my boyfriend always cared so much about me, always being so affectionate and trying so hard. Yet I would still choose a girl, a girl I’d barely talked to before, over him.



Konstantin Stanislavski-

Konstantin Stanislavski was an actor who was born in Russia. He lived from 1863-1963.

5 Elements of actor preparation:

  • Relaxation
  • Concentration
  • Observation
  • Imagination
  • Communication


What did you do in class today? (Summary)

  • We did a watchmaker relaxation exercise.

What did you learn that was new to you? (Perception)

  • I learnt to isolate and relax each individual part of my body, and to control my breathing.

What did you do that confirmed something you already knew about theatre? (Connection)

  • How to direct my focus to each individual thing I do, and that each movement means something/ is intentional.

What was the “concept” or “big idea” from today? (Transfer)

  • Being able to relax, and imagine scenarios in our head.

What differences did you notice between the first time you did the exercise and the last? If you didn’t notice HUGE changes, refer back to prompts 2 & 4 and see if you can come up with something for this. (Analysis)

I noticed that I was calmer the second time around, and cared less about my surroundings, and I was only focused on watchmaking.



  1. What was the name of the performance? The name of the group performing?

Treasure Island by National Theater

  1. What did you notice about the performance?

The way they spoke and directed the entire play plus the costumes gave off a very old vibe, like this performance was based in the olden days. The lights were dimmed, only focused on the actors.

  1. What does the performance remind you of?

The dialogue sounded very Shakespearean, with like old/broken English.

  1. How did you feel during the performance?

During the play, when the pirates were having a party thing, it made me feel somehow included with them, because I could see that they were enjoying themselves and having a good time. Also, during the fight scene was violent…but it was interesting and funny to watch happen.

  1. What questions do you have about the performance?

What was this performance based on/made off of? What inspired this play?

  1. What part of the performance did you enjoy the most? The least? Why do you think that is?

I didn’t really enjoy the dialogue/narration of it, only because their accents were hard to understand. I enjoyed the scenery and props that they included on stage; the sound effects also made it more realistic.

Working with Text: Choosing my text

The monologue I chose: He’s not the problem. I am. It means I’m a terrible person.  It’s just the two of us, and he’s asking me about my day, making me dinner, trying to talk to me about sports, being nothing but nice to me, and I can’t stop thinking that I wish I had her instead of him. What kind of person looks someone in the eyes, someone who’s trying so hard, and wishes they were dead instead of someone else? Every time he smiles at me, every time he hugs me and says he loves me, I’m afraid he’s gonna see that I didn’t choose him. That I want her instead.

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